About to blow up

Just lying here in our bed in Sweden and thinking about the life challenge I need to complete.
The first thing is that He is a bitt passive, don't know why, maybe the love has gone...:(
but I still love him, not knowing if he has same feelings to me... we don't talk to much, don't kiss and hug, which I need as a girl. But i don't want to force him, so I'm just "okay". His brother, other type of person at all, love to watch him together with his girlfriend,  the real love is burning between them. I feel even a bit jealous about that:)
So about the university, I was very excited the first day being there, everything is new, interesting... but that "everything new" too strange, makes me feel so mixed-up! I'm about to blow up because of all that. Don't know the way to go, I mean city, don't know language as well, don't have friends, just Him, but unfortunately, I'm not getting any moral support from Him:(
Everything changes, we need to accept new life rules. So it's time to forget about feelings and become "bulletproof".

23th may

Feel frustrated for today. Totally unsure about my knowledges in history, tomorrow is the final exam and I don't get how I will  pass it... Just so dissapointed and nervous, somebody help me!!!

But here are some good news. I wrote the swedish test yesterday. Hopefully that went okay, anyway results will show, waiting for some good news on 28th week (jully).

Wish me good luck on history test! 

Finish/Start ??

This is it! Goodbye dear school...

But the deal is that I couldn't understand if this was the sad FINISH of the absorbing school  life, or if this was a very nice START of the new happy life without such a stupid school problems. Just stood and cried....Cried because I felt that I will never be a part of the childhood without any cares and responsibilities...
Was laughing the same time :) Laughing, because I felt freedom and got a mass of new prospective opportunities ! 
But anyway that is the huge step in the adult life, I'm glad that we are finally done with that challenge!


Congratulations, dear graduates!

Feelings

I'm tired of lies so much! Fucking fed up with all of that. I can't even make a step in this chaos, like all the time in uncertainty...
Want to wake up some day and realize that it was just a dream. To start from the very begining....
Too much mistakes have I done, too much time wasted. Just want to get to the finish and forget it all. Don't know what to say more for today.

We become strangers. Sorry

success

Be yourself. It's all you can do. 

Here some good news:

soon you'll see me on the catwalk :D

+

Finally got tickets on " The State of Trance 550" Armin Van Buren!! 

Looking forward to the weekends.

+

Going snowboardind on next weekends

+

And here is one more great event! My congratulations to Alexandra, she finally went through this difficult challenges with the huge success :) Love and hug my sweety girl <3

=

DAMN HAPPY

Todays morning

When something's gone, appears something new, much more better than old one. That makes you feel even happier than you were before! :) 

I'm glad that everything happened as it had to be, so my advice to you, my friends, NEVER REGRET THE PAST, cause life is life, and it wants to give you something better, when it takes the old good past. 

HOME

Hollywood smile!

Ukranian schools were closed for 1 week due to the low temperature.

What can be better? Just stay at home, while it's -27 outside.

Here is something to listen when you are bored:)