Snowy and windy Sweden

My darling made me a birthday present- trip to Budapest. Actually I don't know why Budapest, that is nothing to do there, but we had a really nice time there haha. First of all their traditionall food was so tasty! That was that what i missed in Sweden for the whole period of beeing here. Guliash! Mmmm, such a tasty soup. That reminds me our traditional "borsh". So the other thing wich made me feel wonderfull was beer! WOW! so delicious the beer was. We ate their own pasta which was tasty as well. 

        But even if Hugary is the EU country, that was not so perfectly. Dog shit was everywhere and homeless alcoholics were sleeping on benches. I wonder how Hungary actually became a EU country! 

       But in spite of this we enjoyed our time in Budapest, visiting restaurants, Thai massage and walking through the city. 

      One thing i would like to say is about Budapest thermal pool. If you ever would like to go to Budapest i suggest you to forget about idea to go to the thermal pool! That is the place where you see 50 disgusting old people in one pool with yellow water! And you can only guess if that water is yellow because of the minerals in it or because of old people who can not keep their selves from piss. Such a disgusting place!!!

      BTW the weather was wonderful! +15! while in Sweden -10 :) 

So when we went back home and our plane landed in Sweden, we were not surprised to hear from the stewardess "Welcome to the snowy and windy Sweden! "

About to blow up

Just lying here in our bed in Sweden and thinking about the life challenge I need to complete.
The first thing is that He is a bitt passive, don't know why, maybe the love has gone...:(
but I still love him, not knowing if he has same feelings to me... we don't talk to much, don't kiss and hug, which I need as a girl. But i don't want to force him, so I'm just "okay". His brother, other type of person at all, love to watch him together with his girlfriend,  the real love is burning between them. I feel even a bit jealous about that:)
So about the university, I was very excited the first day being there, everything is new, interesting... but that "everything new" too strange, makes me feel so mixed-up! I'm about to blow up because of all that. Don't know the way to go, I mean city, don't know language as well, don't have friends, just Him, but unfortunately, I'm not getting any moral support from Him:(
Everything changes, we need to accept new life rules. So it's time to forget about feelings and become "bulletproof".

23th may

Feel frustrated for today. Totally unsure about my knowledges in history, tomorrow is the final exam and I don't get how I will  pass it... Just so dissapointed and nervous, somebody help me!!!

But here are some good news. I wrote the swedish test yesterday. Hopefully that went okay, anyway results will show, waiting for some good news on 28th week (jully).

Wish me good luck on history test! 

Finish/Start ??

This is it! Goodbye dear school...

But the deal is that I couldn't understand if this was the sad FINISH of the absorbing school  life, or if this was a very nice START of the new happy life without such a stupid school problems. Just stood and cried....Cried because I felt that I will never be a part of the childhood without any cares and responsibilities...
Was laughing the same time :) Laughing, because I felt freedom and got a mass of new prospective opportunities ! 
But anyway that is the huge step in the adult life, I'm glad that we are finally done with that challenge!


Congratulations, dear graduates!

Feelings

Is it so hard to decide?
I'm tired of lies so much! Fucking fed up with all of that. I can't even make a step in this chaos, like all the time in uncertainty...
Want to wake up some day and realize that it was just a dream. To start from the very begining....
Too much mistakes have I done, too much time wasted. Just want to get to the finish and forget it all. Don't know what to say more for today.

We become strangers. Sorry

Too close.

Yesterday. We were feeling okay. 

Thinking of you

I'm like watching you through the lens....

Dreams

                   I wish I could be there now

Who wants to make my dream come true? :)

Thailand

Spring

success

Be yourself. It's all you can do. 

Here some good news:

soon you'll see me on the catwalk :D

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Finally got tickets on " The State of Trance 550" Armin Van Buren!! 

Looking forward to the weekends.

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Going snowboardind on next weekends

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And here is one more great event! My congratulations to Alexandra, she finally went through this difficult challenges with the huge success :) Love and hug my sweety girl <3

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DAMN HAPPY

Busy

So much to do! BUT...

Looking forward to the weekend! 

Have grandiose plans for Saturday- Sunday, hope everything will happen how I want it to be. 

YES

Todays morning

When something's gone, appears something new, much more better than old one. That makes you feel even happier than you were before! :) 

I'm glad that everything happened as it had to be, so my advice to you, my friends, NEVER REGRET THE PAST, cause life is life, and it wants to give you something better, when it takes the old good past. 

we are young

to H.S.

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”    

Bob  Marley                  

♥

Andrei Romanovich Chikatilo

 (16 October 1936 – 14 February 1994) 

was a Ukranian-born Soviet serial killer, nicknamed the Butcher of Rostov, The Red Ripper or The Rostov Ripper who murdered at least 52 women and children between 1978 and 1990. He was convicted of 52 murders in October 1992 (although he confessed to a total 

of 56 murders and was tried for 53 of these killings), 

and was executed on 14 February 1994.

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Happy Valentines Day ♥

Miss

Appreciate people who love you and those who YOU love.  

I miss you... I'm so pleased you took care of me, it was so gratefully! Became my 2nd mommy for some days of my living abroad :) 

P.S. Miss every moment spent with you and your family...

HOME

Hollywood smile!

Ukranian schools were closed for 1 week due to the low temperature.

What can be better? Just stay at home, while it's -27 outside.

Here is something to listen when you are bored:)

Victory

We made it!

Miss and Mister Scandinavian Gymnasium

Kill kill

Love you, I do
Stay here, I won't
As stars fade from your eyes
All our love flying in the sand

    

         

In desperate need of milk and cookies

Have done so much today!
From the early morning running through the city and now finally got to my lovely bed :) 


Hope tomorrow will bring some new interesting chalenges, cause now I'm as much happy as tired. 

Time to start a new life.

                                        Sometimes we need to leave the past and return to the present. Let your dreams and hopes disappear. 






                                                                 It's time to start a new life. 

Inception

Don't walk like you rule the world, walk like you don't care who rules the world.

Everytime we need to start something new in our life. Develop ourselves and explore the world... Learn something interesting, surprising and useful.

 So that's why I came up with the idea to start my own blog. I will try to write in English, although I'm not so good at it , so I hope blogging will help me to improve my English skills:)